Forgetfulness.

I keep forgetting to say "I love you". I keep forgetting to clean my room. I keep forgetting to remember how to do my math homework. I keep forgetting what is most important. I keep feeling like I'm not in control of myself anymore, like I do and say things unconsciously. 

Sometimes I wonder: when will we own ourselves completely? When we stop to think before we speak? When we say "no" to people when we know the right thing to do would be to agree? When we put ourselves first, maybe? Or when we finally start to remember things. I keep forgetting that people have feelings. I keep forgetting that tomorrow is another day.

I keep forgetting to unclench my hands, and take a breath, because tonight will not be the last night I will see the light.